I've always felt blessed for having true friends.
No significant guys in my life, but i can deal with that.
I have 6 awesome friends from St. Marg's,
and i wouldn't trade any of them for a guy.
They're enough to get me through life,
and i know i can count on them no matter what happens.
Entered JC making a resolution to not get close to anyone.
Just wanted to get this over and done with.
"We came, we saw, we conquered"
Remember rolling my eyes at my OGL,
telling me how friends make YJC so much better.
Why should I believe that?
Didn't want to get close to anyone cuz i'd only have 2 years with them.
Didn't want to deal with the heartbreak when we drift apart eventually.
And that's how life trolls you.
Typical case of murphy's law came true for me.
A simple secret kept from me made me realise the importance of our friendship.
It shouldn't bother me at all,
since i resolved to keep JC friends on a superficial level.
The hurt i was feeling made me realise I lost at my own game.
Building walls up to keep people out just didn't work.
Why should I feel so upset when superficial friends don't tell each other secrets?
Why feel hurt on a personal level when it shouldn't have involved me in the first place?
What makes me think I'm close enough to know secrets about you?
Who am i to confront you about keeping it from me?
So many questions, so much to think about.
Learnt that when true friends come along,
I can try all I want to keep them on a superficial level.
But i'd find myself gradually caring more for them, about them.
You can't choose to distance yourself, it doesn't work that way.
There'd always be this empty pit in your stomach if you don't establish your friendship.
So to all the friends I've made in JC,
I love you guys.
You've no idea how much you all have impacted me,
and I just hope that we are on the same wavelength when i talk about the closeness of our friendship.
Be prepared to get stuck with me for life,
cuz when i make friends, I don't let the good ones go.
♥
