Friday, October 22, 2010 21:34
Day Eight: Three things you don't want.
1) Strict Parents.
I was so frustrated at my early curfew and I want even out playing, I was studying. I got so frustrated and upset that they didn't even spare a thought for me, and they think that every parents impose a 6:30pm curfew on their 16 year old daughters. I was so upset I couldn't help but cry in Mich's toilet, and that itself was already so embarrassing.
2) Bad results for O's.
Everything's like a slippery slope down hill if I get bad grades.
3) Fake friends.
I'm at this stage in my life where I'm questioning who my real friends are and I don't like that feeling.
Thursday, October 21, 2010 10:15
Day Seven: Four things you want.
1) Meet Big Bang (I'M GONNA SEE THEM ON SAT!!!!) Hehe but I hope they come back again. Like a YG tour or something. :D
2) Get into ACJC, and their debate team, then go to SMU law and then become a lawyer. Heh I hope things work out. (which means good results for O's)
3) Material things which would come under my Wish List ---->
4) People to stop playing with my feelings. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Ahem CWJ.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010 22:19
Day Six: Five people who mean alot.
1) My Family; cuz blood is thicker than water, ain't it.
2) The people I hang out with in school. Don't want list out cuz I shy :$ but without them I'll be hating school; and contemplating dropping out.
3) Audi people. I think the main reason why I couldn't get over my addiction was because of the people I met there. The game itself is super boring :X Hi Eda, Chloe, Weihong, Jermain, Cass ^^
4) Church people. It feels awesome knowing that they're always there for you and I think I'll be so depressed over the littlest things if they weren't there supporting me.
5) Everyone else whom I matter to. (tsk how to phrase it properly). I have no idea why you guys are always here for me, or why you care so much for me. I think you guys are crazy, tolerating my random and crazy moodswings, lashing out at you for nothing. I don't deserve you guys. But I love you all. Though there aren't many, LOL.
Eh I wish I was impt enough for you guys to repy my texts
Tuesday, October 19, 2010 21:02
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
1) Asked someone to stfu.
2) Met you.
3) Screw up my DSA auditions.
4) I wished I had the courage to speak up against you for all the hurt you've caused me; for all the things you say about me. I wish I didn't indulge in that cowardice.
5) I wish I had spent my Jan-July studying cuz now I'm dying.
6) I wish I had lived life with no regrets so I would be stuck trying to come up with 6 regrets. But hey, look how easy it was for me.
00:48
I miss you, you idiot.
Come back, CWJ.
00:42
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind alot.
1) Can i get into ACJC? Can i get into their debate team? Can i do well for O's and for once not appeal anywhere? (all related la huh)
2) Which friends are real? I mean, not the obvious yes or no ones. The ones which I found out are gossiping about me, and all that. The ones that detest me but still smile and say hi to me as if nothing's wrong. I wonder, quite often, whether the next person is like that as well.
3) What I'm gonna do after O's :D
Hehe i'll go crazy i tell you.
I shall not type it out now cuz i'll just excite myself.
4) I wish i was rich.
Like really.
If i was a rich girl, na na na na na na na na na na na.
I'd have all the money in the world,
if i was a wealthy girl (:
5) I wish i was smart.
Those kind that people always want to bash up.
Who gets A1s without putting in much effort
while here i am struggling to get a B3.
6) I wish i was pretty.
Like those kind that dont put in much effort into their looks
but they still look gorgeous and awesome.
7) I wish o levels were over.
Sunday, October 17, 2010 23:04
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
Can I don't do today's one?
Ugh.
1) Christian please. Unequally yoked (N)
2) A guy cuz I'm straight like a ruler. LOL
3) Unlimited SMSes :B
4) Can you be those kind that likes shopping as well? Like GD those kind heh.
5) Can you like Big Bang too? {:
6) Ugh you know how some guys are one thing infront of you and another infront of their friends? Yeah no thank you (:
7) Being filthy rich doesn't hurt.
8) OH being Korean would be woah
Saturday, October 16, 2010 14:19
Day Two: Nine thing about yourself.
1) I'm a child of God since I was 13. I still feel like that's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Before that I was horrible.
2) I love Big Bang. Many (okay 2) people are really against me liking them and all that and I still don't understand why. But they're the first band that I've been so crazy over, and I think that feeling's gonna last.
3) I am nothing without my friends who push me on and encourage me. By myself, I'd have long given up on O's and would have just winged it.
4) I love playing the piano, even though I'm not good at it. I'm scared to play for public cuz I'm always too self conscious about everything that I forget how to play the song. My first concert was in some mini Yamaha concert thing which coincidentally was on my birthday, 1st July in 2006. I played Beauty and the Beast and Marriage D'amour (: heh and I'm doing Grade 8 now.
5) I love shopping. Heh I think it's quite recent? I sometimes find something I totally fall in love with. Like that Nike Air shoe which was super pretty but the smallest size was 8.5! (I'm size 6). And I love rings. But I have fat fingers so I need to wear those adjustable kind. I almost cried when my Guess ring broke, ugh. I think vests look awesome but I don't own one, heh. I love nail polish and my most successful design was the checkered one I did in church camp '10. I have a LOT of things from Cotton On. Some days I wear a cotton on top, shorts and flip flops. Oh yes and I don't own a cardigan.
6) I'd rather get my phone confiscated than my iTouch. I listen to music everyday when I go to school and when I come back. I listen to music while I study and when I find that my house is too quiet. I'm loving my 32GB though I'm paranoid about using it up so I only have 120 songs in my itouch, 117 Korean, 3 English. Heh.
7) I love speed. Like, I love rollercoasters and thriller rides, I love watching car racing and car movies. Throughout the whole 61 laps of the F1, my eyes hardly leave the screen. In PSP games like Need for Speed, I always find a way to not break while turning corners cuz I can't stand the drop in speed (the trick is to just stop pressing the go button an let it turn on it's remaining speed)
8) I am destructive. I ruin 8 earphones in 5 months, 6 of which were Apple earphones. I spoilt my old iTouch 8GB by wrecking its home button mysteriously (i dropped it in the toilet bowl and it still worked after that) I crashed 3 laptops because I allowed viruses in. I ruined 10 over pairs of shoes. Flip flops and pumps and sports shoes. I spoilt my house's coffee table by making the wood crack (don't ask) and I ruined 4 handphones, 2 Nokia 2 Sony Ericsson. I spoilt a Canon digital camera that didn't even belong to me and I ruined 20 over pens at least by dropping them on the floor. I spoilt 5 pouches which are supposedly unspoilable, 2 of which were birthday presents. I could go on, but I'm already getting scared of myself.
9) I think love is a scam at our age. I can't stand people who complain that they're lonely and they need someone. I don't get it. Life is so awesome as it is, why give your heart to someone else when it's YOURS? I mean like, I find it annoying to have your mind invaded by another person or your day revolving around some other person. My thoughts and time are mine, you know. I also only truly ever liked 1 guy, for like 2 and a half years. Crazy right. So glad that's over. You know those buttons that say Single but loving it? Ditto.
Friday, October 15, 2010 23:35
Day One: Ten people you wish to thank.
1) Mum. For reasons which can never be fully listed out. For shopping with me and paying the bills, for letting me go to a concert 2 days before o's and for trusting that I would not let the concert adversely affect my grades.
2) Dad. For watching soccer with me and teaching me about offsites and professional fouls, yelling with me when someone score a goal, screaming at the referee when the call is so obviously wrong. For waking up in the middle of the night when I have asthma to help me set up my medicine machine thing. For sending me to school when I'm just too lazy to take bus and for picking me up from wherever whenever I call you.
3) Mich. For believing in me. For understanding that when I complain it's not just to whine and that I'm really hurting. For being there when nobody else understood. For making me feel so blessed with friends on my birthday. For always telling me that haters arent worth my time and they're jist tryna get to me. For being unoffended whenever we insult you so that it becomes a habit (hehe). For always updating me when I watch glee and have no idea what's going on because I skipped so many episodes. For taking notes for me during lit when I'm just too lazy to do it myself. For lunching with me at Thomson even if you had lunch at home just so you can catch up with me when we weren't that close last time. For nagging at me even though i complain nonstop cuz you really want me to do well. For waking up at 4:45 am to go to school for consultation with me even though you could have gone another day. For helping me with my schoolwork. For inviting me to the Sentosa and Universal Studios thing. For the funniest retarded moments. For thinking that im perving on your YOUNGER brothers when im not and going hysterical when i talk to them. And for your awesome family's hospitality (LOL)
4) Weiyan. For being my longest closest friend (LOL you know what I mean). For sticking with me even when I'm so annoying and seem to PMS forever. For talking nonsense with me that no one else understands about. For letting me go invade your twitter, LOL. For waiting outside Mallory's dungeon toilet for me because I was freaks by Criminal Minds and NCIS. For helping me with differentiation and integration. For always encouraging me that I can do well for o's. For always replying me SMS quickly, so that I always SMS you first when I need to tell someone something because I know you'll be the first to respond. For watching Big Bang videos when I'm so reluctant to watch David videos. For the stupidest things you do in class that makes me annoyed and wonder why the heck you're my friend, LOL. For your annual cheesy letters on my birthday and not writing me a graduation note cuz it somehow signifies the end.
5) ShiYing. For being my only fellow VIP friend and for going for kpop night with me. For sticking with me throughout the crazy times queuing for the tickets and the aftermath of trying to earn too much money. For making me feel like the happiest girl in the world when you gave me my first Big Bang poster on my birthday. For even remembering my birthday. For spazzing with me when no one else understood. For being crazy and random and painfully innocent, LOL.
6) Amelia. For being my BFF(LOL). For always making me laugh whenever you do something stupid which is quite often. For your understanding when I suddenly get all annoyed and stuff. For making me go close to hyperventilating when you gave me my birthday present. For planning with Mich to get me a brownie for my birthday, :D For drinking my share of the A1 potion ms noraini gave us. For being so obsessed with me that you force me to reply all your smses even if it's at 4am. For your encouraging words that pull me through tough times I didn't even know you were capable of giving. For being supportive when I needed it the most. For making me laugh everytime we have a conversation cuz it's just so retarded. For your birthday note which made me cry even though you didn't know. For going for my second debate even though the motion was so boring. For being the first person I ever had a love-hate relationship with, LOL.
7) HuiYing. Even though she won't read this cuz she's too busy preparing to get her 6 points. For always helping me with A Math and Chem when I'm feeling so stupid cuz I can't do it. For encouraging me to keep going when I felt the most discouraged. For not making me feel inferior to you even though I know you are, by always pointing out what I'm better at than you. For buying Perlini's Silver earrings for my birthday. For pretending you didn't know that kinematics A Math question and asked me to help you with it cuz it was the only question I knew how to do in the whole dang paper, just to encourage me that I'm not hopeless. For always reminding me that hatred should not be worth my time.
8) Tabby. For being an awesome Cell Group leader, and always understanding how I feel even when I don't say it out loud. For sharing your problems with me, showing that you trust me. For trusting me even when you have so many reasons to doubt me because of the many incidents. For giving me a hug everytime I needed it; for knowing when I needed it the most. For your gentle voice offering encouraging words to go on even when I feel like giving up. For the fun moments we had with our inside jokes. Heh, umbrella :D For knowing that I really can't make it for LTF cuz I'm plagued with work to do. For sharing all your (very) personal stories with us not only to entertain us but to help us learn something.
9) Church friends. ESP Charmaine Nadia and Mags. I Iove you guys like woah and I really don't know where I'll be without your help and encouraging words.
10) God. You shouldn't be last,but I just wanted it for the effect. You know, like "Last but not least....." thank you Lord for your faithfulness to me. I remember someone asking me what my favorite trait of You was, and after some thought I said Your Faithfulness. Thank you for being there even when I didn't deserve Your prescence in my life. For blessing me with blessings uncountable but yet I still ask for more. For forgiving me of sins I'm too ashamed to admit I've committed. For guiding me day by day even when I don't realize that You're the reason why I last through each day. For many more things never-ending if it were listed. For always bringing me back when, like a lost sheep, i stray.
