I read ur SMS,
smsed charmaine
and here I am crying -.-
this is really stupid
idk why in crying too
I srsly think I suddenly have so much to do
plus all the expectations
none of them made clear in the beginning
every thing I do
there's bound to be a mistake
To me,
this seems like one of the typical
"holier-than-thou" cases in our church
I can't be perfect and I never will
I'll aim towards that
but my progress can't go that fast.
Sometimes I feel so eager to serve
so fervent, so excited.
It's at times like these
when I begin to doubt my service
I don't feel like I'm debbs anymore
the way I normally talk
is now not allowed.
It's not even vulgar words
or words that mean bad stuff
it's just how I converse.
Now ur telling me that
I should be accontable for my choices
it's not like I had a choice.
Dad only told me abt th plans on Sunday
just now.
I IMMEDIATELY SMSed you
and apparently that's not enough
I'm so new to this whole thing
I don't know how things work
who I'm supposed to report to
but instead of helping me
you claim I'm not being accontable,
being irresponsible.
I think ur forgetting that
all these doesn't come naturally to me
it takes time.
It's the first time I'm doing this
and u don't even guide me along
u just ask me to be responsible
you didn't even say in which area.
I used to go to you
whenever I need to talk to someone
these incidents alone
can change my many years perception of you.
You're not so approachable to me anymore.
It's like a whole new you.
And I don't like her.
